Where Do I Find Solace?

WHERE DO I FIND SOLACE?
(Jan. 25, 2008- by Olive Estrella)

Where do I find solace when all seems adrift?
How do I find rest when everywhere is a rift?
I sleep at night with troubled dreams
And during the day I tear at the seams.

I barely survive every waking hour
As my spirit’s laid down on a ground of turmoil;
I try to reach into the distance afar,
An escape from this urban jungle war.

Polluted air, polluted minds,
A taste of superficial joy that blinds…
Amidst this bedlam of mechanical people,
I am trapped inside a solid, gray wall.

Where do I find solace after a long day’s work?
How do I renew my mind, my soul, my heart?
I struggle to live with the ghosts that lurk
In the dark recesses of a being frayed apart.

The being… me… whose dim light’s fading;
A need arises to save me from falling.
This hunger for peace and succor from within
Are eating me up, killing my longing…

Where do I find solace in the midst of an inevitable war?
How do I find myself again after each scar?
A new strength must surface and remain
To heal the wounds and wash off every stain.

As I continue my uncertain life in this urban jungle,
I ask myself if I should just settle…
A voice within speaks with hope still,
Refusing to give up and surrender my will.

Now I dream of an impossible dream
Perhaps someone, or something, will gleam
And lead me away from this insufferable strife
And into the solace I have sought in my life.